Just start – figure out the details later

In my almost thirty years in life – because let’s face it, 29 is the “almost-thirty” year of life – I have been learning something about myself. I over complicate everything which keeps me from doing anything. 

Being a go getter who didn’t really let fear stand in my way when I was younger, I’m trying to figure out when there was a switch that made me analyze all the possibilities for failure rather than success. 

Maybe this is just something that happens to some people as they get older. They get more experiences, become more cautious, and more practical. They become an adult. The Little Prince warned me this would happen. 

Sometimes I don’t like being an adult. 

I’ve decided to go back to my child-like state of mind of rising to new challenges. You know that child-like mindset that says anything is possible, where there’s a will there’s a way, and I don’t care if I look like a total nerd. 

When I was a kid I cared less about what others would think and more about how much fun I would have defying the odds, trying something new. 

Looking back on this past week the adult in me wants to analyze all the things that I said on social media, how I feel like a “wanna be” blogger who does give-always and inspires people. I want to fix all my mistakes and be perfect. The child in me only has one thing to say… Let’s do that again!

If the adult in me had anything to say about this blog, it probably would have never happened. Why you ask? Are you ready for this? I couldn’t think of a name. That’s right. Months went by with me setting goals to write and I stopped before I ever started because I couldn’t think of a name. 

And you know what, I’m still not sold on Sheila Makes Goals. It’s so boring, a little cheesy and lacks creativity. I’m sure you were thinking the same thing. It’s okay, let’s be honest, it isn’t my best idea. 

After watching my eight month old son try to walk I was inspired. The child like determination he possesses blows me away. He fearlessly tries to stand on his own, to take a step, falls flat on his butt and sometimes his face, yet he gets up and does it again. There is no doubt in my mind that he will reach his goal any day now. Then, with all his might and determination, he will begin his next goal. He just does it. 

I have a friend and fellow blogger, Jeff Goins, who inspires me often. I am definitely going to share more about how Jeff has influenced me later this month, but for now I want to share that I see childlike determination in him regularly. Most recently, Jeff tried an experiment to launch his own business in 48 hours. He learned how to roast his own coffee, package it, brand it and start an online coffee business all within a couple of days. He decided to do it and he did. He gave himself a time frame and it happened. People actually bought his coffee.

I decided to do something similar. My goal for June was to write and set up my blog. I gave myself two days to set up a blog, Instagram and write my first post. And I did, with the name Sheila Makes Goals. And I’m glad I did. The child in me is having so much fun chatting with my readers, sending letters in the mail and networking with other bloggers, readers and goal setters on Instagram. The adult in me is ready to take this new blog and tweak it and mold it and be constantly improving. The child is there to remind me, it’s okay if it isn’t perfect or if you fall on your butt, get up and keep going. There is so much to discover!

What’s something you have been wanting to do lately? What is keeping you from taking the next step? 

Bonus question! “Sheila Makes Goals”? Keep it or ditch it? Any suggestions?

Just.Write.Something. 

I reciently had an epiphinay. I am a writer. Some who know me may remember me having this epiphany years ago. Is it still an epiphany if you’ve already experienced it?

I’m not a writer because I’m good at it and can captivate a reader with my brilliant wording of profound thoughts. I don’t get paid for it.  In all actuality, I haven’t written anything in a long time.

The thing is, when you realize something about yourself that requires an action, you have to DO something about it. I quit doing. Over the years I wrote less and less. I reached a point where the only thing I wrote were text messages and poorly auto-corrected Instagram posts. Sad.

The past few years are full of life that I wish I had captured in print. They have been a few of the most exciting yet most trying years I have walked on this earth – church planting, surgeries, church plant ending, dating, trying home church, moving, getting engaged, moving again, getting married, being pregnant, abruptly couch surfing, moving to a different state, having a baby and going to school. 

I’ve honestly had a difficult time adjusting to my new roles, circumstances and locations. My mother told me I needed to bloom where I was transplanted but instead of thriving I feel shriveled and thirsty. I’ve lost myself somewhere along the way. 

I lost myself because I abandoned who I am – a writer. 

I’m ready to plunge into that first step of catharsis and creativity. I’m ready to take root and be refreshed! I’m going to start with what I know.

When God speaks to me, I’ll journal.

When I pray, I’ll make lists and cranes (I’ll explain later).

When I want to show someone love and feel connected, I’ll snail mail.

When I fight with my husband I’ll write in my gratitude journal and remember love wins.

And, when I feel inspired, I’ll blog.

This leads me to my goal for June: just write something. 

  

Since January I have been making a different goal each month. Some I accomplished, some I temporarly failed. Some of these goals led Eric and I to de-clutter and redisign our bedroom, complete the Whole 30, and for me to focus on school, to name a few. 

Now we are in June and my goal, once again, is to write. Here are the specifics:

Each day I just want to write something. Anything. A prayer, card, blog post, love letter… Anything. 

I want to interact with fellow goal-setters through my writing. I will do it by setting up a blog site (check), setting up an Instagram (check), writing blogs (check), and sending snail mail. 

Bring it on June!

Now I’d like to hear from you! What are some of your current goals? What are you doing to reach them?

If you would like to be entered for a chance to receive some snail mail from me leave a comment bellow. On Friday I’ll announce two lucky people who can give me their address and expect a little something special in their mailbox next week! 

– Sheila